Ephemeral Dreams

“Sometimes what we want is not what we really dream of.”

When I was still juvenile, first grade, to be exact, I always put on papers that I want to be an ASTRONAUT, I don’t know, but maybe with that young brain, I was so astonished by the fact that astronauts get to see the planets, stars, and the whole Galaxy.
Then when I was in third grade, it also came to my mind that someday I want to be a SCIENTIST. Well, I was so sure that deep inside me back then I wanted to be popular through inventions and science thingies. And when I was in the fifth grade already, I was definitely sure that I dreamt of being a BOTANIST someday, because of my zoophobia (I’m scared of all animals, seriously! Long story) I thought being a Botanist will exempt me from dissecting animals, but I was wrong, after all it’s still Science! Haha! So off to that science-full ambition, when I was still a freshman high school, I longed to be a DOCTOR, cardiologist to be exact. I don’t know why! But what I know is I’m so interested about things concerning cardio-thingy back then. But it went so fast for me to realize that I want to be somebody else. When I began reading novels when I was in my junior year, it hit me like a meteor that I want to publish a book someday and be famous worldwide. In short I want to be a NOVELIST. And that was the biggest dream I’ve ever had. So until now, I’m living that ambition (Oh that J.K Rowling feeling.)

And not just that, when I entered college, I chose AB in Communication, because I wanted to be a MEDIA PRACTITIONER. I also dreamt of entering the world of films, I wanted to be a FILM DIRECTOR, well, I’m still dreaming of becoming one until now. I even planned to transfer to other school to take up AB English or Shakespeare study, I think that was the start of my love for love-tragedy-stories and I got so intimate about it that I’ve dreamed of writing my own story that time, but it was hard. Writing is a “no joke” work. And yes, just last year, I’ve got myself into sounds that I wanted to buff up my skill when it comes to sound boards and consoles. After the magnificent play “The Forsaken House” which I was one of the production staffs, I planned to enter the world of THEATER. I mean I have a lot of catching up when it comes to acting but the love for music? Yes, it made me think of prioritizing my love for music and theater at the same time. And hello Broadway! I want to be the next Lea Salonga. (How I wish!)

So that was kind of “what’s on my mind” thing right now, I guess after my bachelor’s degree I’m going to think about things seriously, well I have to save money first. Like, I really wanted to enter Theater Arts, Film School, or even the recent calling, The Law School, which is definitely not on my list, but yea, I don’t know, well the story goes like this, I fell asleep in front of my laptop, as always, and every time it happens, I keep on entering this trance that I was in the court room, battling for cases and keeps on winning, it happened four times last month. (Funny, right?) Well, I’m not that good in debates and all. I’m not that good when it comes to memorizing articles and keeping them from brain to heart. I’m no good at all, that’s what I think.

So I asked some of my friends if what they think should I do.

“Try mo lang yung law, magexam ka, malay mo pumasa ka.” - X. Rodriguez

“If you tried living your craft maybe you’ll see, kung saan ka talaga pwede.” – M. Lopez

“Try mo Medicine, hahaha, Masaya din naman kahit mahirap.” – A. Somo

“Try mo lahat, para di mahirap. JOKE.” – D. Mendez


So I was so like -_- . really?:D

Now I still don’t know, but what I want now is to pass all my 4thyear subjects and esp. my THESIS! Yey! Good Luck to me. I’ll be glad to blog about my choice when it’s already time. But for now, Music and Writing, Hey, I’m on!

“Dreams are temporary, they change every time, next thing you know, you’re already living in your greatest reverie.”- RJ Quiambao