Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Just to disappear like a bubble


"I wish there's this big hole that can make me disappear for a while. . ."

Seeing something you want fly  away from you like a piece of paper is a like letting whatever you wrote in there be read by everyone. We never write bad things about ourselves, but in reality, we have to connect to what makes us the black sheep. Sometimes, everything you worked hard for will vanish in just a second. And when the time comes, that you're ready to face the new page of your life. It’s very bizarre that those crashed dreams go back and slap you hard in your face. (Funny, right?) Sometimes we are also locked up with just one thing: our greatest dream, but still keys are unknown for you to open and win.

Me: Weakest Link

"I'm afraid. . ."
I always put myself into the safest place I know, I'm afraid to lose everything I have. I know it's very weird writing about what I'm afraid of, but I think this is the best way to somehow kill it!:)

I grew up wondering why am I like this, why do I have to be like that, and what else do I have to do. I'm afraid to try things. I'm afraid to know what the real world means. I'm afraid to be a loser but now I am, I'm afraid to tell everyone I can't because they might think of me as a weak person but I really am! I don't have the perfect EVERYTHING, and I don't have anything to be proud of.