Me: Weakest Link

"I'm afraid. . ."

I always put myself into the safest place I know, I'm afraid to lose everything I have. I know it's very weird writing about what I'm afraid of, but I think this is the best way to somehow kill it!:)

I grew up wondering why am I like this, why do I have to be like that, and what else do I have to do. I'm afraid to try things. I'm afraid to know what the real world means. I'm afraid to be a loser but now I am, I'm afraid to tell everyone I can't because they might think of me as a weak person but I really am! I don't have the perfect EVERYTHING, and I don't have anything to be proud of.



I don't see myself holding a trophy, or whatever award the world has. I can't promise my friends that I can be the nicest friend ever. I'm a person who wants to be alone most of the time. Just hang with my phone and headset, songs playing and books open, that's what I do everyday. I usually give my darn concerns in the internet, cause I can't live without one. Many people asked me why am I like this; why do I keep on separating myself with everyone, it's hard to answer perfectly, but in reality, I'm the weakest link of everything, I do feel bad about it, but change is not the answer. Now, a forlorn episode is playing on my life, this I can't win over. I have this attitude where in I always give up, I always think of negative things that could happen. Rejection is my great bff! and I'm a big loser..... PERIOD

I don't know, but maybe I'm on the stage where in I'm still asking myself if how sure I am with my decisions, I feel I'm a prisoner of my own jail. The jail where regrets are locked. :(